I’m currently 25, no home, no car, no man & 1 child. Now mind you, I’m not in this position due to anything BUT inconsistency, much of which was no fault of my own… Today I liberate myself from the pain of holding this world of problems on my shoulders and having mistake my depression for self-centeredness. Today, I set myself free.
Many ‘series of unfortunate events’ happened over the course of my life. The most traumatic? At this point it’s hard to distinguish. It could be when my father looked at me in my eyes & told me verbatim “there’s nothing good about you” in a passionate, wrath-induced crescendo, whilst simultaneously standing up with hands towards hips; in typical condescending body language…. oh, and I didn’t mention this is after me admitting I have suicidal tendencies because he always talks down to me…. Like maybe a few seconds to mins.
Or the time where my highschool classmate & friend almost-kinda-coulda got me pregnant many years after we’ve known each other and he said to get an abortion & he would never have a child with me because “nothing good ever happens to me”.
Only 2 measly situations & I’m already tired.
I guess when you let the keg get this heavy, it takes effort to spill it out….
But I know I must continue on, or the pain will turn to poverty; when it MUST become power.
But anyways it’s late af & I’ve got work tomorrow, yikes! Peace .